You know there is a reason it is a 4-letter word….LOL!!  Here it is 2 in the afternoon and it won’t quit snowing, it’s lightened up some, but still coming down!

I tried to get my car out on my own, no luck.  Called a friend and they came to my house around 11:30 started shoveling and just can’t keep up with the snow.  We are hoping it stops soon so we can get my drive shoveled out before dark.  I really didn’t think we would get hit this hard when I was watching the news last night.  Surprise!!  Spring can not get here soon enough this year.

So I have been doing housework that I normally do on Saturdays.  I figured why not, at least I’m working and not just vegging out, I hate being snowed in, the thought of not being able to get out….grrrrr!!

As for my life, well each day is a new day.  I try to be strong but I am human and heartbreak hurts like hell.  I have to believe that all things happen for a reason, and who knows what the future holds.

Getting geared up for the Super Bowl!  Oh Yeah, my team and Bruce Springsteen…how outrageous that will be, yeah!! 

I keep moving along and cope with the heartbreak.  You do get to the point where you don’t cry as much, which is good.  The pain and loss are still there but you know crying isn’t going to help after some time.  I thank God for my beautiful little girl, she is a blessing.  She is sad because she adored this man also, but she is a kid so it’s easier for her to bounce back.

I seem to be going over every aspect of our time together, only 5 months and seeing if there were signs this would happen, and there were but I was so in love I was blind.  And it was love at first sight for both of us basically.  A whirlwind that spun out of control.  Right now the memories hurt and I know in time they won’t, but it seems there are reminders around every corner.  And just because I’ve been hurt and my heart is breaking, the love hasn’t stopped.  I mean I have gone through being angry, but you just can’t wipe out the love in your heart over night. 

I do think from time to time “what if” and “maybe someday” but I know that isn’t a possibility.  I just keep family and friends near and enjoy seeing my daughter play and laugh.  The main thing is, I don’t look back with any regrets, for 5 months I had a wonderful love and how can that be thought of as a bad thing? 

Yes today is and I have to keep moving on.  Heartbreak sucks, it seems like the worst hurt in the world when it happens.  You cry, get angry, cry again, and then go into that numb stage.  I think I’m in the numb stage right now.  I truly thought I had found the one, my other half, my soul mate…but it takes two for a relationship to work and unfortunately that wasn’t the case here and it’s over. 

And you know heart break still bites at my age, it may be a bit easier to deal with than when you are a teenager, but it still takes a lot out of a person.  Have I given up on finding true love?  I’m trying not to, and I feel in time I will believe in love again, time does heal.  And in the meantime, I will enjoy my wonderful daughter, family and friends.  I love them for giving me many shoulders to lean and cry on. 

Ok I wish I could figure out men.  Within the past year I have been duped by two men who I thought were good guys, especially the latest.  He was so sweet and caring and then became one of the bad guys.  I have been wondering if my good guy radar is not working correctly, I mean I am older than say someone in their twenties, does that effect the radar of telling good from bad?  And why are some men at my age, in their forties, into head games and basically not acting like an adult?    Men and women, we never seem to be on the same page in life.   

When you are a teenager, dating is like the ultimate.  You go out with fun guys and tell all your girlfriends if he was cool or not or a good kisser or not, just fun and no worries.  Dating as an adult, well that isn’t as easy.  I mean in todays world it all seems confined to the internet.  And that can be misleading, I mean you can be anyone on the internet and then when you meet….WOW!!  Sometimes that person isn’t at all like they were in emails and instant messages.  I thought I met a good guy, but in the end not.  But I’m going to take a break from dating.  It’s not as easy as when I was 16, being in my 40’s it takes a lot of effort and can be exhausting at times.  I know one thing, I’m staying clear of the internet, just not sure where to find a good guy.  Maybe one will show up when I least expect it….crossing fingers!

So there was a poll done and these are the top ten rock and roll icons from the results.  What do you think?  I was shocked that Bruce Springsteen, John Lennon and Eric Clapton were not on the list and I don’t really feel Jon BonJovi deserves a place on the list.  Here is the list…..

The top ten ultimate rockers are:

1. Freddie Mercury

2. Elvis Presley

3. Jon Bon Jovi

4. David Bowie

5. Jimi Hendrix

6. Ozzy Osbourne

7. Kurt Cobain

8. Slash

9. Bono

10. Mick Jagger

Let me know what you think of the list and who think is missing, love to hear your thoughts!

Well with the new inductee list, I was disappointed.  I mean Run DMC????  Come on!! Metallica, ok choice, not a big fan of their music but they deserve to be in the over Run DMC! Very thrilled that Jeff Beck made it in as a solo artist!  So who do you think should be in there that hasn’t even been considered?  I’ve had a few replies….

Heart
Def Leppard
KISS
Deep Purple
James Gang
Steve Miller Band
Grand Funk Railroad
The Guess Who
Chicago
 

Remember this when thinking of who should be in the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame… 
Artists become eligible for induction 25 years after the release of their first record. Criteria include the influence and significance of the artists’ contributions to the development and perpetuation of rock and roll.
 

Yes I’ve been away from my blog, and I feel bad just been a hectic beginning to the new year.

With my fall on January 2 that laid me up for over a week, I feel I’m being this month and the month is fast flying by….and I hope it takes the cold weather with it!!

Today would’ve been Janis Joplin’s 66th birthday and I can’t help but wonder what she would’ve been like, odds are a cool rockin’ chick still.  I’ve always felt a strong connection to her and her music.  She was always searching for that one person to love her just for her and I seem to be doing that with my life.  And when Janis sang, you could feel her soul.  Janis hope you are havin’ a great party where ever you are today!