Just around the corner and looking forward to another weekend.  It seems as we get further away from Winter you want the weekends to go nice and slow.  Waiting for the dog days of summer to arrive!

Life with me is great these days.  I’m dating a good guy and this feels good this time.  No one can see what the future holds, but I feel pretty awesome about it now!

Have a great weekend and be safe! 

Love when Fridays come around, you put in a long week at work and are ready for the weekend.  And this weekend I’m very excited.  The new guy I’ve been dating is coming up to see me and that will be fun.  He has met my daughter and she gets along good with him, they both like race cars…LOL!

I was a bit weary to get back into dating, but I took a chance and it paid off so to speak.  He is a sweet good guy and not into games and crap like that, and we seem to be able to talk about anything and everything.  Sometimes there is that instant spark, this is one of those times and I couldn’t be happier.

My little girl is so precious.  I’m fighting a cold and last  night after dinner and dishes, I just wanted to wrap up in a blanket on the couch.  She got her crayons and coloring book and sat beside me and said she would take care of me.  How sweet is that?  After about a half an hour, she got a blanket and cuddle up to me and fell asleep.  I just looked at her and got a bit teary eyed, she is growing up so fast.  It seems like she was just born and now she is 5 and becoming her own little person.  And I’m very proud of my daughter.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!  Be safe if you go out on Saturday with all the snow coming…like we needed snow!  LOL! 

Yep it’s here already!  The weekend went fast, nothing exciting in my world.  Spent time with my daughter, which is always the best!  She had a Valetine’s party at school on Friday and came home with a box full of Valentine’s and candy, and she did share the candy with Mama…LOL!!

It’s the greatest!  I never thought I would get the chance to be a Mom, and then I was blessed with my daughter.  And yes I had her later in life, but when I look back at my 20’s and 30’s I was a little bit wilder and I feel I had her when I was ready to settle down and be a Mom.

My little girl amazes me at times.  Our lives in the past year have been through quite a lot with her Dad leaving and then the recent break-up I went through.   She sometimes is the one comforting me when I feel sad or cry.  She will hold my hand and say “Mama it will be ok, I love you and I will take care of you.”  And she does, she will cover me up with a blanket and snuggle up to me and pat me on the shoulder.  And yes she can be a handful at times and very stubborn, but I wouldn’t trade being her Mama for anything in this world.

My Mom and I are very close and she always told me that mothers and daughters have a strong bond.  And now I can see and feel it from the Mom side.  And I thank my Mom for showing me just what a great Mom is and I try my best to be that for my daughter.

Oh sure I have a few more grey hairs and sometimes want to pull them out when Emily gets a little out of control, but when she smiles at me or hugs me or tells me she loves Mama or sings and dances around the house, I realize that being a Mom is awesome!

Which is something I tend to do when I am going through a change in my life.

I was talking wtih Will this morning how I sat down with a notebook and pen last night and was writing down things about my recent relationship and trying to figure out where I went wrong, what I could’ve done differently, anything to make sense of what happened.  And should I change the type of person that I am?   Will said no you don’t change who you are, and I know that, I truly do….but you doubt yourself when something like this happens.  Even though you aren’t at fault for what happened, you begin to re-examine who you are as a person.  Which in my opinion and other people in my life isn’t bad at all.  I’ve got a big heart and I’m a caring and generous person who has just been taken advantage of, so I won’t change me, but I will be more guarded in the future when it comes to relationships.

Right now I’m enjoying my daughter and friends.  I’m wishing for Spring, my Mom will be home from Florida and the weather will be warming up.  How great it will be to see green grass and flowers! 

I’m going to enjoy each day and live life to the fullest.  And those who have walked out of my life are the ones who will be doing the thinking and regreting in the end.

What makes up a family?  Is it only the people you are related to by blood?  For me and many people no.  In todays world there are so many extended families.  With divorce and losing a spouse there are step families, which is a family.  Many people take in friends to live with them, which is family. 

Some people welcome anyone into their family regardless of them being blood related.  And some have a hard time with people that aren’t blood related.  Which to me is sad.  Family is a wonderful part of your life.  And when you have an extended family, I feel you should embrace them just as you do your own.  Oh sure there will be disagreements along the road, but you have that with your immediate family also, just a part of life.

My little girls Dad had a son when we met years ago.  And he is part of my family, he is Emilys half-brother and I will always consider him family even though I am no longer with their Dad.

And with this last involvement I became very close to his son and grandkids who I welcomed into my home as family and still think of them that way, even though the relationship has ended.  These are people I would help if they ever needed something.

Family is what you make it, and for me I cherish everyone I consider family, which includes my close friends.  I can’t imagine them not being in my life.  

Well it was a good one.  Kept busy with housework and shopping for the little party at my house for the Super Bowl.

It was nice to go outside and have some sunshine and warmer temps, but that did cause a little problem at my house.  Had some roof leakage with the ice melting around the gutters.  Nothing too serious, but had to keep a couple of bowls out to catch the water.

The Super Bowl was great from beginning to end!!  I was happy it was such a close game.  I mean with the Super Bowl you want it to be that way, no fun if it is a blowout!  And of course Bruce and The E Street Band put on one  hell of a show!  My little girl loves Bruce but she crashed out and missed the show.  I tried to wake her up, but no go.

Life is better, healing everyday.  The hurt is still there  but I’m seeing friends and doing things and that is a big help.  And of course my daughter is a blessing and having her is the best medicine.

Funny thing, on Friday I picked her up and in her folder was a paper where she had to write the sentence “I’m sorry for cussing” 5 times.  On the back was a note from her teacher, and my little angel while playing with her little friends said sh**!!  Needless I was surprised, she doesn’t hear that at home.  Come to find out one of her little friends said it and she thought that is was ok.  So we had a long talk about bad words.  I just have this feeling this is the first of more talks to come down the road….LOL!!